Ugh New Years....
Why do people make New Year's Resolutions? They NEVER stick.
- I am going to lose 20 lbs by February 1.
- I am going to go to the gym at least 3x a week.
- I am going to pay off my credit cards.
Flash to February (or March, or April).... Have you kept up with ANY of your resolutions? Probably not.
So why do people make resolutions if they are more than likely not going to stick with them? Honestly I have no idea. I haven't made a New Year's resolution in years. I don't see a point. I starting making them in like middle school. I said things like I would be a better student and make the honor roll the next go round. Yeah, anyone who knew me knew it was possible but not likely to happen.
High school came and I would make similar resolutions - get better grades, talk to Adam and find out why we weren't friends anymore, maybe ask out someone. Ok, the last one did happen but that's a whole other story.
The point is that no matter what goals we set for ourselves, we need to do them because we WANT to do them, not because it's a "new year, new start."
Fuck that shit. That's not gonna happen. Know what I want to accomplish this year? The same thing I want to accomplish ALL THE TIME! I want to get some of my debt paid off. I want to feel better about myself and my depression. I want to get closer to figuring out who the hell I am.
Am I going to make a new year's resolution to do that? Nope.... I am one of those people who if pushed or forced to do something, I will rebel against it. I will get lazy and not bother. People told me I had to quit smoking (numerous times) but I NEVER did until I decided to. Not someone else pushing me to. I did it because I just didn't want to smoke anymore. I remember every time someone would scoff at me smoking and it just made me want to smoke more just to piss them off. I would say "it's my life, let me live it." Guess what? That's totally true. It is my life. I will live it how I want to. (Within reason of course, I mean come on, if I am doing heavy drugs, not going to work, whoring around, etc I would hope and expect my friends to step in and get me the help I need).
Ok, getting off topic again.... My point is... wait, I don't think I have a point. I am just venting.
Well I guess I am done venting for now. TTFN ~J
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