Not sure why things are the way they are but I am tired.
I am tired of things always being wrong or not enough or even not what is wanted.
I try and I try to be a good person. I try to be a good person, friend, whatever but all it ever does is backfire.
Why do I even bother? Thirty-two years and it is always the same. I try and get either nothing, little or the wrong thing in return.
Maybe it is true. Maybe I am not meant to be happy. Maybe I am supposed to be happy for everyone else yet never know true happiness myself.
Yes I have the best friends and family that anyone could ever ask for but is it enough? I really want to think that it is. I can lie to myself all I want to and say it is but no matter how many times I say it, it really isn't true.
Maybe I don't really know what I want. Maybe I do.
All I know is that I am tired of waiting for you.
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