Is it bad that I want to hate someone. I want to hate them with every fiber of my being but I can't. I can't hate them but I want to so much.....
Why do people even think of saying they will never leave? They always do.... It doesn't matter if they are pushed or if they choose to leave, they always go.
I just don't know if this time it was my fault or not. I apologized, I begged, I pleaded for them to talk to me..... Nothing. I shouldn't want to still have this person in my life but I still cry. I still miss them.
I have lost so much already, why should this person matter so much?
Oh well... Nothing I can do. They want me out of their life so I am trying my hardest. I am trying my best to let them go. I just have to keep telling myself that they aren't worth it.... I have to remind myself that they kept me down even if they didn't realize it.... I have to keep telling myself that I am better off without them....
Even if it feels like a lie....
